Hi there! I came across my diary from when I was about seven or eight years old, and I thought it would be quite funny to show you what's written inside! This is really embarrassing oh my goodness.
April 16, 2007
Dear Diory,
Today was the Horses and Dogs Club. My friend Karen came over, and we had the meeting. I got to ride Jackson, and I got to Barle-race. I was flying when I got to the last Barle!
Yes, I had my own club called the Horses and Dogs Club. My friend Karen and I had imaginary horses that we would "race" and "ride" whenever we hung out as well as "barle racing". Haha I was the worst speller in the world.
May 1, 2007
Dear Diory,
It's me Audrey! I need to tell you that I have just started to play some new sports. I just started playing basketball, I would like to play some right now. Goodbye!
Yeah whatever Audrey. You were into "sports" for two weeks.
May 17, 2007
Dear Diory,
I stayed home today because my arm pit hurt. Only 4 days until Karen is over! 2 more days until my dance recidle! We are going to the dance studio tonight to get our costums! I will let you go.
Guys I took staying home excuses to a whole new level. I think I was having some kind of skin reaction to deodorant as I was young and had never worn it before. Also, way to "let the diary go", I'm sure it had other plans than to be written in.
June 17, 2007
Dear Diory, and God,
I found a T.V. vidieo called the Barbie Diories. So I just pray that I want a electronic geitar. So please tomorro I would like one.
AMEN, love you.
Needless to say, praying to my diary was not effective in my new found Barbie obsession. ;)
September 6, 2007
Dear Diory,
I hate Ethan today was the worst day of my life!!!!
Okay then. Sorry Ethan I don't hate you anymore.
I hope you enjoyed this post as this was SUPER embarrassing, but I'm willing to be uncomfortable for your amusement. ;)
Love, Audrey
Saturday, July 25, 2015
Thursday, July 23, 2015
Making a Youtube??
Hi everyone! I just have a quick little question for you. What would you think about me creating a Youtube channel where I post weekly or biweekly videos for you to enjoy? I would post things like monthly favorites, vlogs, routines, tutorials, recipes... the works. Let me know in the comments what you think about this idea! I would love to get your feedback :) Have a wonderful day!
Love, Audrey
Love, Audrey
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
Everyone Loves a Little Lush
Hello everyone! So... I got a little carried away on lushusa.com last week and ended up spending literally my entire paycheck (sorry not sorry) on Lush products. I tend to stay away from Lush simply because it's so darn expensive, but I thought I deserved a little treat. Plus, their products are not tested on animals, and there's a pretty nice vegan selection there as well. Enjoy :)
Granny Takes a Dip ~ $6.95
I have seen this bath bomb literally everywhere on social media recently, and I couldn't wait to get my hands on it. I smells sort of citrus-y and quite fresh. This one was a no-brainer for me.
The Comforter ~ $10.95
This bubble bar was the most expensive thing I got, and it definitely has a comforting scent (my room currently smells incredible thanks to this guy). It is literally massive, and I'll probably get my money's worth of this one because I can break it apart for multiple baths.
Dragon's Egg ~ $6.25
This bath bomb is also massive, a little smaller than the Comforter. It's mostly white, with little flecks of color inside it. I've heard this one is particularly spectacular when you place it in your bath water and I can't wait to try this one out! Again, quite a citrus-y, fresh scent.
Space Girl ~ $5.25
Holy mother of glitter, is this one messy. Needless to say, it's gorgeous looking (and smelling).
Amandopondo ~ $7.95
Another bubble bar that caught my eye. It has a pretty flower in the middle and smells so creamy and so delicious that I want to just take a bite out of it. It has the lightest floral scent that isn't so overwhelming. In love.
Pink Bath Bomb ~ $4.95
Look how absolutely adorable this one is!! I was so excited about this one, and it has a sort of spicy vanilla scent with a touch of floralness. (I'm awful at explaining scents).
And that's everything! I'm so happy with all of these gorgeous things and I can't wait to have a relaxing Lush pamper evening tonight!
Love, Audrey
Friday, July 17, 2015
Hot days and Shirt Dresses
Today was a sweltering one, and tomorrow is sure to be worse. How do I survive the heat without melting in a puddle like the wicked witch? Dresses of course! This is a top I found at Goodwill for about $5 that was extra long, so I made it into a dress. (I put shorts underneath it just in case, don't you worry). Here are a few snaps from today. Enjoy!
Have a great weekend and stay cool everyone!
Love, Audrey xx
Thursday, July 16, 2015
H&M Home Wish List
I'm always trying to make my room look as pleasing and Pinterest-worthy as possible. I recently have fallen in love with H&M's homeware section. I thought I would share a few things I found there that are definitely on my 'to-buy' list.
Mini Bowl ~ $6.95
I thought this bowl looked so cute, and would be nice to have around the house. They had a plate version of this as well.
Woven throw ~ $49.95
This blanket looks so cozy! I would probably place it on a chair back for at the foot end of my bed for a nice cuddle blanket.
Cushion with buttons ~ $12.95
I love the look of this cushion! It kind of reminds me of my childhood... maybe I'm weird for thinking that.
Storage basket ~ $12.99
I would probably store some kind of linens in this; maybe towels.
Patterned Cushion Cover ~ $12.99
I adore this cushion cover! Plus, it's not entirely monochromatic, like I usually enjoy things. *heart eyes emoji*
Storage basket ~ $12.99
Another cute little basket. This could hold almost anything, really.
Thanks for reading! What is your favorite place to buy home-things? (I'm always looking for new places to spend all my money).
Love, Audrey
Saturday, July 11, 2015
Tricky stuff
Hello everyone :) I'm sorry I have been kind of MIA recently. I'm back with another post for you! This one is a little different than something that I would normally do, but I think this is important to address. Mental health is something every person will struggle with at some point in their life, no matter what their lifestyle is. Depression, anxiety, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, ADHD, OCD, PTSD, and panic disorder are just a few of the many disorders that exist. I have struggled with social phobia, medical phobia, depression, and panic disorder my entire life. So many people have told me they never would have thought I was struggling with these things because I tend to try to hide my symptoms and tendencies. As a child, I had difficulties making friends, being with people, speaking how I felt, and feeling good enough. I would play by myself, avoid speaking on the phone, stay as quiet as possible so I didn't say something wrong, and try to be as nice as possible to everyone I met so I would avoid all possibilities of rejection. I repeated these tendencies since they made me feel safe and happy. We all want to be safe and happy, right? These safe tendencies turned into social phobia. This isn't normal social anxiety. This wasn't feeling a little anxious to present in class or nervousness on a first date. This is a chronic, awful, almost painful desire to avoid speaking up, being with friends, and any situation in which I had to perform. My mom placed me in dance classes to "socialize" me. I was the smallest girl there, that everyone seemed to not notice and kind of stick me on the end of everything. Despite being small and meek, I found solitude in dancing, and without those classes, I wouldn't have my biggest passion today.
When I was 8 years old, I was admitted to the hospital with a temperature of 105 degrees, extreme throat and neck pain. I was so miserable and my parents had no idea what to do. Nobody knew what was wrong with me. I was placed in isolation, and all my visitors had to wear masks and hospital gowns. Doctors came in every hour to poke and prod me, drawing blood and putting in IV lines. After my condition worsened, the doctors sort of gave up. While I was completely awake and aware of what was going on, the doctors told my parents to prepare themselves for my death. Needless to say, I survived, but the scars are permanent. Today, I have such a fear of doctor's offices and the dentist, and I panic and have anxiety attacks every singe time. Anxiety is one of those things that even though you know it's an irrational fear and you know you're safe, you feel scared.
I am still finding myself and figuring things out as far as my anxiety goes. I try to push myself to tolerate some discomfort in order to expose myself to things that make me scared and uncomfortable. If you've ever had a panic attack, you know how truly frightening it is. You actually feel as though you're dying. Some common things that happen are: rapid heartbeat, fluttery stomach, nausea, sweating, dizziness, blurred vision, and shakiness. Some examples of the things you think are: I'm going insane, I'm losing control, I'm having a heart attack, I'm going blind, I need to get out of here, I can't breathe, or something terrible is going to happen. These thoughts are so scary. I remember I had a panic attack at school once, and I left the classroom and ran as fast as I could to the cafeteria and hid under a table because I felt like I was being hunted. The best way to recover from a panic attack is to let it happen. Let your muscles tense. Let your heart beat. Let yourself vomit, if you need to. Allow all of your anxious symptoms to pass. Go to a place where you feel the safest, and if you need a support person, take them with you. Let your body calm down on its own. And always remember it's okay to panic and it's okay to be anxious. Some things you can say to yourself to calm down are: I can handle these symptoms and sensations. This is just anxiety, and it's okay. I deserve to feel okay right now. This anxiety won't hurt me, even if it doesn't feel good. These are just thoughts, not reality. I could go on for hours about this topic, and let me know if you want more information about anxiety and panic disorders.
If you think you may have an anxiety disorder, know that you are not alone, and you have so many resources to help you recover. Educate yourself, read books, talk to your doctor, have some counseling sessions. There is no shame in dealing with something difficult. I wish you all the best of luck.
Audrey
When I was 8 years old, I was admitted to the hospital with a temperature of 105 degrees, extreme throat and neck pain. I was so miserable and my parents had no idea what to do. Nobody knew what was wrong with me. I was placed in isolation, and all my visitors had to wear masks and hospital gowns. Doctors came in every hour to poke and prod me, drawing blood and putting in IV lines. After my condition worsened, the doctors sort of gave up. While I was completely awake and aware of what was going on, the doctors told my parents to prepare themselves for my death. Needless to say, I survived, but the scars are permanent. Today, I have such a fear of doctor's offices and the dentist, and I panic and have anxiety attacks every singe time. Anxiety is one of those things that even though you know it's an irrational fear and you know you're safe, you feel scared.
I am still finding myself and figuring things out as far as my anxiety goes. I try to push myself to tolerate some discomfort in order to expose myself to things that make me scared and uncomfortable. If you've ever had a panic attack, you know how truly frightening it is. You actually feel as though you're dying. Some common things that happen are: rapid heartbeat, fluttery stomach, nausea, sweating, dizziness, blurred vision, and shakiness. Some examples of the things you think are: I'm going insane, I'm losing control, I'm having a heart attack, I'm going blind, I need to get out of here, I can't breathe, or something terrible is going to happen. These thoughts are so scary. I remember I had a panic attack at school once, and I left the classroom and ran as fast as I could to the cafeteria and hid under a table because I felt like I was being hunted. The best way to recover from a panic attack is to let it happen. Let your muscles tense. Let your heart beat. Let yourself vomit, if you need to. Allow all of your anxious symptoms to pass. Go to a place where you feel the safest, and if you need a support person, take them with you. Let your body calm down on its own. And always remember it's okay to panic and it's okay to be anxious. Some things you can say to yourself to calm down are: I can handle these symptoms and sensations. This is just anxiety, and it's okay. I deserve to feel okay right now. This anxiety won't hurt me, even if it doesn't feel good. These are just thoughts, not reality. I could go on for hours about this topic, and let me know if you want more information about anxiety and panic disorders.
If you think you may have an anxiety disorder, know that you are not alone, and you have so many resources to help you recover. Educate yourself, read books, talk to your doctor, have some counseling sessions. There is no shame in dealing with something difficult. I wish you all the best of luck.
Audrey
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